I moved my bloggie le!!!

bebesao.tk


or

hyped on hebe

After I got myself some great brushes... I made the banner better~bWaHaHa. :D
Can't wait to make some others some other day... Really into graphics editting nowadays.

Anyways. Nowadays when I look at the mirror to gaze at de **great beauty** inside... XD (Current state of well-being: zi4 lian4-ing... XD)
I notice a strand of hair poking out and standing out from my wonderfully black black hair... Hahaz!!!
It's like bronze/ copper/ golden colour... :P Being a guai kia I never ever dye my hair... So it's rather funny. Hmms.

Beats me ----- It's like I'm confused an amazed enough when I was in Pri. Sch. and suddenly finding a strand of white hair amongst my black eye-brows... Heehee.
Everytime I pluck it out it would regrow somemore... :S

(Note to self as I look at the time: Well I better be studying my lungs out later on.)

OH YAH!!! I STILL HAVEN'T DONE MY ENGLISH HOLIDAY HW!!! AARGHZ---
Guess I'll just rush the 3 newspaper articles... The compre...? Dunno throw until where le...

Anyways... My world's been occupied by other stuff nowadays. :P
So I guess I'll just blog weekly... bWaHaHa. And also because my current blog is not flooded with Bebe photos yet... So I dun feel the drive to be blogging... Heehee...!!!

Wah. I really like Bebe nowadays leh. She rox!!!
But actually... Hmm. Dunno lar. :| I think the way I like her is tt sort of erm... Like the way I like Final Fantasy...? Just tt she's a person with all those qualities tt really appeal to me and all. Dunno lar.
It's just another form of like and never ever love. ^^. Heehee.
In fact I dun think I ever come close to loving anyone. Just like. But then there was someone who felt rather special to me. But he only existed in my world for a couple of MRT stops... So... Er. Guess I'll just drop the case in a sea of billons of pple who ca1 jian1 er2 guo4 with their lives never intersecting each other everyday...

But then yet again maybe tt feeling was just an illusion of me or whatever... The whole affair ain't really something I'm entirely interested in too. Hmm... But it felt real in a way on the other hand. -_________-" Head-big.

As I'm talking abt all this... ALRIGHT. I must go into the VCD shop and buy Possession some other day.
Never really forgot this movie. Shown on Selina's b. day back in those days when my preference was still Selina. It's Chinese title was rang4 ai4 ca1 shen1 er2 guo4... Let Love Pass You By.

Hmm. Whatever. And I'm gonna buy Big Fish DVD oso. Yepyep. Oh I simply love movies. :P

As in --- Back to Bebe --- Dunno how to say lar. But I dun think I like her as much as the way I talk abt her.
I just love exaggerating... :$ Though I do really like her in a way. bWaHaHa!!! Anyways sometimes me myself also dunno how much of what I said really is true... Hahaz!!!

Like that day my conversation with the oral examiner. And my conversation with my peers afterwards. I couldn't really tell or decide for myself when was I saying what's really in my heart.
But one thing was certain --- When the examiner asked abt me letting my secrets and stuff to pple --- My reply in my head was instantanous and firm --- NO.

Then I went on further to explain to her my own "perception" and "definition" of friends nowadays.
I just like the mmts we have together when I could throw all my troubles away.
Even if they come tumbling down on me once I'm out of company --- But tt is life to me --- You deal with all the struggling on your own --- But friends throw light into the whole ordeal.

Then when she asked if I would get bored of keeping all these to myself. I said no I'd at least consult adults... Well alright I'm definitely LYING on this one... Hahaz!!!
Dunno lar. Even as I'm blogging... All these words coming out of me... How many layer deep into the real truth in me are they...? Just a lil bit thicker than surface value but never quite as near as my voices within...??? Figures.

Sometimes when I wonder abt all this I think I could only account all the blame to my horoscope... Hahaz!!! Tt's a Gemini. It's like the other day when I found out Yijie was also one... Though both of our personality is kind of like two complete opposites... I'm not tt entirely surprised.
It's just a matter of which side of us we let out I guess... I mean I think I'm a MATURE & QUIET & PESSIMISTIC person inside but what I show to the world is the other way round... :|
But I also kinda grow used to it liao anyways..... As I learn to deal with all my inner turmoils independently while still living "happily".

Hmm. I shouldn't be judging pple anyway... What am I talking........?? Geez.

Dunno lar. Life is a complicated subject and I never think of it as a fun & exciting experience nowadays anymore.
It's a StRuGgLe. A battle you constantly engage in until the mmt you R.I.P....
Though it's the least bit of fun..... Present stage in time I still deny committing suicide as way of release strongly...

Man. It's like. Really lor. Even as I'm surfing S.H.E forums. Few times in a week you have pple constantly saying they wanna die wanna die wanna die and blah blah blah. And I really dun get this whole thing of hurting yourself at all.

Seems pretty gross to me.

My idea is tt the more life throw difficulties at me. The more I feel a definite urge to emergy victorious and step down on all those blardee shit tt's been causing my suffering...
When life is a struggle, I take revenge back at it by being strong. :| Yepyep.

Maybe I'm starting to understand Hai3 Bian1 De1 Ka3 Fu1 Ka3 a lil.
Or maybe I just refuse to condemn myself to fate. To weakness. Or whatsoever.
Refusal to lay low.

Whatever it is... I should be bucking up and stop slacking and wasting my life anymore... :P
Hmm ----- WORK HARD~~~~~

((But I really dun feel like studying now... HAIZ........))